Well, I know I have not written anything since Christmas, and there have been so many reasons why, but I wanted to post something for this month. The only thing I can really think of is what has been on my heart lately. I really can’t share it in detail. All I know is God is trying to teach me something, and I don’t quite have an understanding of what it is. But I know He is faithful, and I am reminding myself of that everyday. My sister gave me a song that ministered to her during her difficult time she faced two years ago. I can’t believe how it completely describes where I am so I wanted to share it with you because maybe some of my readers are going through a difficult time as well and need some understanding or maybe even some peace. I for one am needing both peace and understanding. I hope it speaks to you the way it has spoken to me. Right now, this is the cry of my heart.
“In the Waiting”
Pain
The gift nobody longs for, still it comes and somehow leaves us stronger When it’s gone away.
Pray
I try and pray for Your will to be done, but I confess, it’s never fast enough for me.
It seems
The hardest part is waiting on You
When what I really want
is just to see Your hand move.
I want a peace beyond my understanding
I want to feel it fall like rain
In the middle of my hurting.
I want to feel Your arms as they surround me
And let me know that it’s okay
To be here in this place
Resting in the peace that only comes
In the waiting
Time
Time to let it go and just believe
Trusting in what no one else but You can see
Free
Freedom from the fears that close me in
When I can’t get beyond where I have been, but then
Again
The silence doesn’t mean that I’m alone
As long as I can hear that I am still Your own
